I have a strong suspicion that this blog is not going to last. There is so much negativity here. But I am grateful for a place to vent it out, no matter how repetitive I tend to be. I'll probably still keep it, as a journal of course, but it won't be active. Just like my other old blog.

At this point I have started the antidepressants and I am desperately waiting for them to really kick in. I've been coping in the usual way--eating--and as usual, its not good. I'm getting huge really quick and im also feeling really sick 24/7. So I think Im starting a cleanse tomorrow. Just for a little while.

I know I am supposed to be giving myself time to heal, but I am starting to feel really pathetic.

Do you ever just want to pack up the car and drive away? I feel like I could just keep going until I get to the west coast. But what I'm running from is me. So why run? Just a waste of gas..