UPDATE: I moved back home. I withdrew from the semester. I've been diagnosed with clinical depression. I am going to be starting antidepressants. I'm really sick i.e. i'm tired & have gained weight. 

In the midst of all the bad however, I feel optimistic about acknowledging the problem and seeking help. At first I was embarrassed and ashamed but now I realize it was a brave decision. There's is nothing to be ashamed about because it is an actual illness and I have been battling it for some time. I think once I begin the antidepressants & they kick in, my life will improve. 

I'm going to be able to work on my goals and have less setbacks. It has been really frustrating. I normally a very motivated person, but depression has taken over. Every single day I write and rewrite my goals down and my game plan to execute them. But day after day I find it harder and harder to do the simplest of tasks. That is why I am so ready to try a new remedy and find help. Wish me luck!