I made a very important decision today.

The thing about having an ED is that I am never satisfied with my weight.

Honestly it has so much of a mental effect on me.

So back in Febuary I was at a weight that I thought was still too big, when really it wasn't. 

Now that I have gained some weight I realize that I should  have accepted myself at that time.

Maybe things would be different now if I had. 

So anyways I am taking these pictures and gaining inspiration.

I am going to get myself right & get back down to that weight I was at in Febuary.

Once I get there I am going to stop trying to lose weight.

I am going to stop KILLING myself over exercise and weight.

I was depriving myself and overdoing it.

I am making important changes now so I can be healthy.

I honestly just want to be healthy & I know right now I am not. 

I think making important realizations like this, along with going to therapy will be so good for me. 

I already love exercise & healthy eating, I just need to be strict with the overeating & the sugar.

Those are my issues right now.

Once I clean up my diet & eat less, I will have more energy for exercise.

So this fat is going to melt off right away!

It is just about discipline & commitment. 

Pray for me, I need this!!