Hi

Long time, no see!
I haven't written in a while but I think it was necessary. I have been doing a LOT of healing {mentally} and I think that I am really making progress and finding my strides so I can continue to move onward & upward.

I just want to share the happenings in my life lately! To start--

work: same old, same old. office & hallmark don't change much! although I feel like I slack off at both. I blame the dog days of summer.

family: i feel like i am in a good groove with my family. i'm at the point where i feel like i am an adult living in my parents house which is weird but great. i do chores, go grocery shopping for them and cook sometimes. i like to help, but i'm also excited to find a place of my own. also i have really enjoyed spending time watching a movie with my mom or shopping with my dad. i think these little things are what add up in the long run and i'm grateful for the everyday actions and conversations.

friends: summer is truly the time when i feel like friends are so important. in the fall we all tend to go separate ways, but right now i am squeezing as much time out of them as i can. 2 of my best friends are going on LDS missions this october, many of my friends are headed back west for school in the fall, and i am leaving my hometown and leaving some of my best friends behind while they go to school locally. we've been going on road trips to Maine and New York, going to the zoo, attending grad & birthday parties, watching scary movies, shopping, going out to dinner, enjoying the summer, and basically just having those memorable summertime hangouts & conversations. July really is the most beautiful time to open up your heart and speak honestly and lovingly with each other. I love those moments.

school: I got into the Food & Nutrition Program at Framingham State University! I plan on attending this fall as a sophomore. Now I am just in the process of finding somewhere to live and I should be all set. I am choosing classes in a monthand I am definitely excited!

church: i do not think i can express what a blessing it has been to be a member of the franklin YSA branch. i have made and strengthen many friendships there recently and i have been feeling my savior's love more and more each time i go. our president is honestly so caring and genuine that i can't help but feel comfortable and happy. i am gospel doctrine teacher and head of the FHE committee. it feels amazing to have responsibilities. each week i make the hour drive, but it is honestly so worth it and i wouldn't trade my sabbath day for anything. i have been making some lofty goals to pay tithing, read scriptures daily, and attend the temple monthly, and i have to say i have definitely been feeling more responsible and in tune with the spirit.

health/fitness/therapy: therapy has been a major blessing in teaching me the ways of self love and acceptance. i have definitely been going through a hell of a trial this year, but i'm grateful i got off my high horse and accepted the fact that i have a problem that needs resolution. by doing so, i have been able to acknowledge how i cope with pain and stress, and i have been able to identify how to improve. my mentality has drastically improved and i am at the point where recovery is happening and i am taking each day as it comes. be here now is my motto, and i am learning the ways of health, love and happiness one day at a time. it feels good...and scary. but mostly right. i am still trying to sweat as often as possible, make the healthiest eating decisions i possibly can, and love my self through my everyday adventures. its a long battle but it is the best way to get better. i'm scared of leaving home and spinning out of control again, but i also think i can do it over, and do it much better this time. i am so incredibly grateful for the support and love i have gotten from family and friends who just love me, for me. they have accepted me when i am still learning to accept myself and that amazes and overwhelms me. how did i get so lucky? please tell me!

romance: ha. but listen, that's not a bitter "ha." that's more like "ha" i don't have time for that ya silly! i'm doing me! also, once i'm in a good place myself, i'm sure this aspect of life will improve. you gotta fall in love with yourself before you can with anyone else, right? no worries though, my time is coming. also i say a lot of prayers so my man is destined to be super hot. that's a mormon joke if your sitting there like 'huh?'

*in other news, i went BLONDE!
okay, not really. I got blonde highlights. but man is my hair lighter. i love it but i'm also never gonna go all the way. i'm a dark haired lady at heart.

well that's my update! i'm going to try to be more consistent with this whole blog thing, but let's face it, that probably won't happen. plus i journal a lot more than this. it is how i keep my sanity. i literally fill a notebook at least once a month. i mean there are so many goals, to-do's, and thoughts running around up there..i need to find a place for them! am i right or am i right?

peace xoxo.